How and Why?

How do you know your making the right decision? When we were younger our parents told us to do the right thing...but how do we be certain which path is correct?Lines that were previously clear cut now blur, each side much the same as the other. If they both have rivers to cross and hurdles to jump, how do we know which path will spit us out alive at the other end. How do we know we haven't chosen the wrong path, taking us away from our true destination. How do you struggle, needing to know which decision was right, when both end in tears, loss and permanent change. When both result in grief and hardship, which one does one choose. When the bridge behind you collapses and you must choose one way forward, where do you go?

Surely when you make a truly right decision, you shouldn't have major regrets? Every decision I have made is haunted with regrets and curiosity. "What if..." What if I had taken other decisions, where would I be now! Would I have any regrets? The older I get, the more I regret. Surely decisions shouldn't be this hard. And then it hits me...

Maybe the decisions aren't meant to be this hard, but maybe I made all the wrong ones...

How can a single human be this useless and depressing?
How can you be so worthless?
Why am I invisible?
Why is it my fault?
Why do I keep saying sorry?
Why am I not good enough for anyone?

Everything is always me

Music

Music brings an amazing meaning to life. It is the language of the soul. Music expresses the things words fail us for. It is such a pure and emotional thing.I look to music to bring meaning to my life. When you listen to a song, sometimes the emotions it expresses can have a total mood altering effect; it can either cheer you up or make you upset.

The other night, I was feeling quite down and afraid. I didn't know what to do, and I turned on my ipod to listen to in hope of some consolation. Through music I found comfort, sadness, and so many other emotions I couldn't put a name on, I just knew they were there. Music gives me so much and I give thanks that I can hear it.

Music is magical, but not all songs are true music. Yeah, sure they're geat to listen to, but sometimes when you turn down the volume they don't sound all that good. Music that touches your very soul is a gift, not hard to find but sometimes forgotten. I love to sing, and when I sing I feel like I'm soaring, and everything else just melts away. When something bad happens, I've had a stressful week or a crap day, it just makes it go away for a while. The raw power and emotion just pours out and your voice resonates around you, clearing your head. I get a happinesss from it, a high, and if I couldn't sing, I don't know what I would do.

On some occaisions, music just makes me feel empowered and free.

Some songs or lyrics just make you feel, and here are some of my favourites:
(my apologies, the video upload won't work. ^~^)

Cosmic Love- Florence&The Machine

It ain't me babe- Johnny Cash and June Carter Cash

Don't stop believing- Journey

Let It Die- Foo Fighters

Little Lion Man- Mumford and Sons

Dog Days are over- Florence & The Machine

Welcome to the Black Parade-My Chemical Romance

Good Riddance-Green Day

I've Gotta Feeling- Black Eyed Peas

Don't Rain on my parade- ( :( don't know original musical)

You've Got The Love- Florence & the Machine

Hereos or Ghosts- The Coronas

Number One- Tinchy Stryder ft. N-Dubz

All Good Things- Nelly Furtado

So, I just want to say Thank You For The Music,
Goodnight!^_^
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