Uninspired...bored...thinking...bitter...down...lazy....

Sorry for the absense of blogging.... I'm not going to make up any excuse, I was just to lazy to. Completely uninspired. Summer boredom blues.....

My Room

Hello again, inhabitants of the blogosphere! I just wanna say thanks for all the nice comments and words of wisdom on the last post, I was having a serious ponder on life and needed to express myself, and hey, whats my blog for?

Anyway, I'm sitting here in my empty feeling room. Your probably right about now wondering "Wtf?", but I took all my posters down of my walls. Yes, dare I say it, I think it's time for a bit of redecorating. I need to touch up the white paint anyway, so I've decided I want to have my room all nice by the end of the summer. But I really need help. What am I going to do with it. It is currently painted a rotten shade of pink (which I thought would turn out to be a really hot pink, but no, it looks like barbie threw up in here) on two opposite walls and white on the other two. Not a good look! I want my room to not look really childish, but i'm a bit caught. I have all my duvet covers and cushions for my current colour scheme on pink and white, with a bit of orange thrown in here and there. And some of them were kinda expensive and we only moved into this house two years ago, and i took me ages to do my room, so all my stuff is relatively new. so i'm thinking I might just go for the proper hot, hot pink paint I wanted and keep the same. Oh I'm so confused! Any help, suggestions or advice on the matter would be greatly appreciated!

Oh, don't ask me difficult questions like what I want to name my blog post at this early hour of the morning when I'm pissed off!

Well hello, long time no see! I must apologise for my absense from blogging this past week, I was in the ghaeltacht. *Yes, shortest stay EVER in the wilds of the Irish countryside, but I shall explain further down.* So no, I'm not M.I.A., While I was frantically running aroung the house last sunday packing, my computer refused to oblige me and work for the five minutes I needed it! Typical!

Anyhow, I have returned from the 'Big G' (as "The BFF" christened it) early because I was/am sick. So I'm kind of dissappointed now.......*depressed face*I mean it wasn't like it was amazing or anything, but I just think we didn't pick well when going there, as it was very weather depending in regards to water sports. I have this horrible nagging feeling at me now because of the fees that were paid, and I don't get the jumper I ordered now ( well even if my friends bring it home for me, where is the point in wearing when if someone asks I say that I was only there for a week. Shameful ) and I feel very unaccomplished!:( I was going to go back down today, but after talking to my friends on the phone lastnight, I decided what is the point. I've missed 4 days if I go back and they said they are so bored down there and want to come home. And i'm not better or anything, I've just improved since the day I came home. So there is virtually no point going back whem I'm still sick and everyone down there hates it...

Also, I got a sneaking feeling when I was on the phone lastnight to the BFF that I'm not wanted down there. After I said I was comming back, the conversation of plesanteries immediately dropped... I had a fight with her on the second day down there, but I thought that was resolved... Maybe not. I just feel so down right now, because I was looking forward to a great time in the Gaeltacht, telling everyone I was going and now I'm back and have to tell everyone that I'm back. I refuse to be seen in my town and have only gotten out of the car once; to go to the doctor. I feel like a big baby and everyone will laugh at me though.... I feel as if I'm not supposed to be here....Mam actually said no that she wouldn't bring me back down after I told her about the phone call with the BFF as I spent the entire time on the phone in tears to her the evening of the fight....

*sorry for the worst post ever, i just needed to let my feelings out...
Also, apologies for the poor writing, I'm too down to care...

ladybug

SCHOOL'S OUT FOR SUMMER

Ahhh!! I'm so excited! Tests are over! No more study! I don't care if I failed anything!!(Okay maybe I do a little bit!) I don't care that I done sooo Shit in Tech Graph, even though I love it and not bragging, but im actually kinda good at it!(like seriously I got a B and ya should have seen the look the teacher gave me!Daggers )I Don't care!! Lalalalalalalalalalalala Roll on summer!!

Sun

Oh. My. Goodness. Do my eyes decieve me or is that sun I see? Yes, it is actually sun,in Ireland. It's a gorgeous sunny weekend, and correct me if i'm wrong, I believe temperatures in the midlands are up to 27 or 28 degrees celsius.Everything should be perfect, but where am I, inside about to tackle my homework.. this sucks:(:(:(:(
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GHAELTACHT!=S=D

Omg, well I got a letter from the irish collage I will be attending during the summer explaining the rules, and for some reason it's suddenly so real and so close! I'm heading in roughly two months and I'm kinda excited as I'm a first-timer to the ghaeltacht. Anybody have a good idea of the things you really need to bring?It's fairly watersports based. Please comment. Ahhhhhhh im really excitedd to be going but i'm scared of being away from home for the first long period of time I feel so like a big baby but I do enjoy my home comforts very much, thank you! I'm afraid though, as I am going with three friends that I will get homesick and they won't!I'm not a very sporty person either and what if i'm not able for the bog-walking and Hill-walking involved.Basically, what if it is my living hell!? I really want to stick it for the benifits to my irish( which, btw, is ALRIGHT, but i have a useless teacher in school and I do want to keep up HL and do well in the JC.) Up to this I've been really looking forward to the ghaeltacht but now, for the first time I'm beginning to have doubts.

Well either way, the Ghaeltacht better prepare, mar ta me ag teacht!

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