Why?

Just why?!Why does everything feel so bad,when nothing's really wrong?School's nearly over that should make me happy, but I'm not.I feel in a very expressive mood and yet I don't know how to express it...
The weird thing is, before I actually started this blog, I had millions of good ideas for it...and now they've gone out the window. So now I have a Blog that sounds so self abssorbed because it's all about me and my life, and that wasn't really the intention.I feel in a mood to post, but about what I don't know!*I should really shut up now!*
I will not post until im in a better mood,and I actually do some study this weekend!
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please read post at the end!!!xxx

aaaaahhhhhh!I'm brain dead! Just spent three and a half solid hours studying...I'm so busy and so tired.

I posted two random posts lastnight and didn't get to explain myself ,so here goes. I occasionally write poetry.Usually it's depressing and dull because I only feel the need to express my feelings in such a way when I'm down. I put down the pen for about a year though, and completely forgot about it until something snaped inside me on monday and all of a sudden, I had two poems written in the old notebook. I had some confused emotions about this, but the first one is about rediscovering the pen and the ability to write poetry.The other one is just how I was feeling the other night.Just don't judge them too much, they're my most inner emotions poured into words and although they're personal, I don't know, I just felt the need to share.

In other news, I'm having a mental breakdown about summer tests, any help appreciated!Also I earned a new nickname in school about a week or two ago; a few of the lads started calling me "Google".Apparently I know everything. Someone could have told me this before, then I wouldn't need the drama about the tests!;) The nickname is kinda starting to annoy me though, I don't know how to stop them! There's no malice intended, but it's really annoying. Any ideas?Am I too sensitive or would that annoy you? Anyway, please comment, and I leave you with some pictures!:

For some reason my pictures went to the top!

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oh fly, oh fly,
oh why, oh why,
are you in my room at 11 at night?
I'm really annoyed
as your managing to avoid
my attemp to kill you.
you're really pissing* me off
And I look like an eejit
Waving aroung a rug plan in the air
buzzzzzzzzzzz............
BAM

I don't normally swear, poet's license!:P
Night!xxx

busy bee!

aaaahhhh!!!!! I'm recked tired! I've been so busy all weekend; it was my cousin's confirmation yesterday and had a lovely "family" dinner today! I have been so busy lately it's not even funny! I've had so much homework and i'm still not in the habit of doing it. It's seriously scary!!! We hav summer tests in 3 weeks and I haven't done any work in ages !ugh! I think maybe its time to begin the military operation of clearing my desk! my room is a total kip!! lol ! I hardley even have time to post decent posts on this! its sickening!!
Anyway guys, I just want to say thanks to my whole 6 followers(including me ;D) you guys rock! six might not seem like a lot, but it is to me!!I mean six people actually read this!! (wow, ye must be bored!!;D:D:D;:L:L:L ^_^oj)but seriously thanks for the follows and comments, keep em comin!!! lve ye!! mwah!!
hahaha I'm so tired I'm not even making sense! the next time i go on this and read this I'll probably be saying what the hell was I writing! niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiighty niite!!! hehehehehehehehehe ^_^ ^_^,


your lovely ladybug!xxxx